Hanging on your every breath like a bird without its wings, I float through the sticky air from a post spring rain. Your words are warm against my neck and your aura radiates, meshing into mine. Crows crash violently above and water stretches for miles, turbulent and destructive- Blue as far as the eye can see and into the horizon.
Silence. Nothing but waves falling into the sand below. A southern wind blows against our backs, nudging us closer to the edge- The precipice overlooking a life laid out before me. The violent ripples of days and years yet to come. Chunks of rock and debris stretch up toward us- The petrified hands of a thousand souls lost at sea, reaching to pull us down. Like the devil on my shoulder, you lean in and whisper:
I’ve been wanting to post something on this topic for the past few months, and every time I start over, I get to a point where I say, “what’s the point?”. It’s so frustrating to see how little people give a shit about the on-goings in the world, or even our country. I understand, though. A year ago, I didn’t know what GDP meant, or what a debt ceiling was, much less what was going on in Iran, or Syria at the time.
The point I’m making here by writing all of this, is that this shit is fucking important! I’ve never, ever been a political person. I still don’t consider myself one, because most of the stuff I read up on is the gloomy truth that CNN or MSNBC will NEVER air. I’ve grown passionate about what’s going on in our country and abroad because, first and foremost, it affects ME personally like never before in our past. And you should feel the same, because it affects YOU just as much, on the same level. They say fear is a great motivator, let’s see how accurate that is.
I realize that many people have a very short attention span, so I’m going to be as brief as possible, and I’m going to very generally summarize everything I’ve read, and been keeping updated on in the last few months.
I could write about ten pages on this topic for everyone to comprehend the big picture. I actually just had about four paragraphs written on this one topic alone and deleted it all to summarize the main points. The information is out there, use your friend google to help you dive into these topics more if you’re interested. To put it in a very small nutshell:
Our country is broke. And the only reason we’re able to continue functioning is because the Federal Reserve (the company that prints our money) has been pumping around $80 billion into our economy each month, which at the same time is devaluing our dollar. We are also living in the biggest financial bubble in history right now. What this means is that our system is being propped up on faulty legs, and at some point in the near future those legs are going to give out.
Why does this affect you?
What happens when our system gives out? Our stock market crashes, banks shut down, money goes, “see ya!” When this happens (it’s not an “if” anymore, as numerous economists have said within the next 3-12 months this is GOING to happen) stores will be wiped clean of food and supplies, power goes out because the people running the power plants aren’t getting paid anymore, water shuts off because there’s no one to pay these people for their work, people will lose their homes because they can’t afford to live there, etc etc.
I’ve read multiple times that the average american household has about three days worth of food in their house. After this is gone, people will take to the streets getting food for their families any way they can, yes, this means killing YOU for food. Law and order will go out the window almost overnight. It will be utter chaos and devastation for those unprepared. Don’t believe me? Take a look for yourself at what happened in populated parts of Venezuela. Many people who realize that their life savings are gone in the blink of an eye will choose to end their lives. There will be immediate backlash against the government for “screwing” the country, and there will be riots. I read a quote once that fits perfect here: “When people lose everything and have nothing left to lose, they lose it.” Because of this, there will be an extreme increase in murder, burglaries, rape, etc.
If people act like they do during Black Friday, imagine what it will be like when people know that their grocery stores won’t be restocking their shelves ever again.
The funniest part about all of this to me is that a species as smart as we are accepts buying the basic necessities of life. These are things we can get ourselves. People did it before there was money, and people can do it again. You can’t build a country on top of a faulty system that was doomed to fail from the start. People need to realize that the money they have, they don’t own, at all. All the Federal Reserve did was turn our gold-backed dollar into something that was worth an IOU. Then they capitalized on this in the form of inflation, taxes, interest, etc. Our country is basically a complex pyramid scheme run by the corporate bankers. As long as this nation is stuck in the mindset that they “own” their money, we will never fix ourselves of this problem, and we’ll continue to let them drive our country into the ground.
If you don’t know what this is, I would suggest you look it up. For a while, I was completely consumed by the economic collapse scenario. Until I read about this, and my next topic. These two could be potentially catastrophic for all life on earth as we know it.
Again, in a small nutshell:
Fukushima is a nuclear power plant in Japan. Because of the tsunamis and earthquakes over there in 2011, the emergency cooling systems in the plants failed to work properly. Over the next few weeks three of the reactors had semi-meltdowns and the company ended up dumping TONS of radioactive water into the Pacific ocean. Because of this, you can bet that the fish you eat is probably tainted with radiation, if it’s from the Pacific ocean. Which, surprise! Can kill you. This radiation is eventually going to to eventually circle the globe and create big problems for us down the road. This is already causing us a major problem here: Children born on the west coast, right after the meltdown and up to now, are already significantly more likely to develop hypothyroidism because of the radiation from across the water.
Another problem is that the fourth reactor is severely crippled. It’s standing on pools of soft mud from when the workers flooded the reactor with sea water to help keep it cool. If it happens to fall by any means, start praying.
How does this affect you?
In addition to the radiation issue listed above, Just ONE of the fuel rods inside of the reactor has the potential to kill almost 3 billion people. How many fuel rods are in there? Around 1,500. So, if this thing explodes, it has the ability to kill 45 billion people…..or, the equivalent of our entire human race almost six and half times.
They are working on taking care of this as of right now, but it is HIGHLY dangerous and will take quite some time to finish. Let’s cross our fingers that there isn’t another strong earthquake over there any time soon. Oh, and the latest article I could find said that there were still leaks dumping highly radiated water into the ocean.
3. Peak Oil/Climate Change
This is, in my opinion, the most important one. Because this one has the most widespread catastrophic effect on everything.
Peak oil is the fact that our oil consumption has peaked, around 2005. We are in an oil shortage (which is why oil prices are rising) and are now in the plateau before the devastating fall of the oil age. Why do you think our country is so hell bent on stealing oil from other countries?
Well, that’s fine, you say. Well, it’s not. Everything we use is made from oil- plastic, rubber, car bodies, anesthetics, etc etc. Almost everything we use today was made from oil in some form or another. Before the rise of oil, our population was sustained at around 1 billion people. After we figured out how to use oil to make all of these things we have now, our population has shot up to over 7 billion in a very short time. It’s been exponentially growing ever since. What happens when we can’t sustain our oil to make products to provide for all of these people? A die-off happens. We can very well experience an average excess death rate of 100 million per year every year for the next 75 years
An ever growing side effect of trying to produce enough to sustain an exponentially growing population is the damage we are doing to our world. The World Wildlife Agency is saying that at our current rate of consumption the earth needs 1.5 years to replenish the natural resources we consume in one single year. They are also saying that by the year 2030, we will need the equivalent of two planet earths just to meet our yearly demands, if we continue on the path we are headed now. Obviously we don’t have two planet earths, and we don’t have 1.5 years in a single year to replenish what we need. This is very dire news for us.
The processing plants we use to refine oil spew hundreds of chemicals into the sky, which is depleting our ozone layer, and warming our environment. I used to think “global warming” was a myth, and a dumb one. But the more I’m reading, the more I’m realizing that this shit is real. If we don’t stop polluting our environment by trying to provide for people that we already cannot provide for, our world climate is predicted to shoot up 3-6 degrees celsius. This doesn’t sound like much at first glance, but even if it went up 3.5 degrees, our climate would be unsustainable for human life.
Fracking is an important part of this, as well. See, since we have scarce pure oil, companies have figured out a way to bore deep into the earth, inject uranium which is supposed to push out oil they can drill. This has been known to cause violent earthquakes, as well as poisoning our earth from the inside. This process is currently degrading around 360,000 acres of land and emitting around 450,000 tons of air pollution. And I thought climate change was made up. Why do you think we’ve had so many intense earthquakes all over the country lately?
Mining tar sands is another way we’ve been trying to avoid this oil crisis. Which is by far the dumbest idea out of all of these. Tar sands are a combination of clay, sand, water and a heavy black oil called “Bitumen”. This can be processed to create an alternative to the more traditionally pumped oil. The problem is, it takes around two tons of tar sands and seven barrels of water to create one barrel of pure oil. Not to mention the greenhouse gases and toxic emissions produced by this process is just a nightmare. So basically, putting more money and effort into creating small quantities of oil, and polluting the earth worse than regular oil mining.
Needless to say, this is all very bad news for us. Even NASA did a study this year and concluded that continuing on the path we are on now would have catastrophic effects on our existence, saying our entire world would collapse within the next few decades. We have about three years before the climate change we are causing is irreversible.
How does this affect you?
The point of all of this is to get people to wake up. People are constantly saying “let’s make the earth a better place for our grandchildren”. Yeah, right! This is happening RIGHT NOW. This is going to happen in our lifetimes. We need to stand up and make a change for everyone living today. It all boils down to one thing or the other. If an economic collapse doesn’t take us out, the radiation from Fukushima has the ability to do so. If neither of those do, the peak oil crisis will most certainly. Who knows? Maybe all three will happen. Or another world war (nuclear this time), which would kill us all anyway.
The point is: If we don’t divert how our society and world functions in the next couple years to something more positive, we are looking at the extinction of the human race within the next twenty to twenty-five years.
Suddenly Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, etc, doesn’t seem so important, does it?
Things change. Sometimes there’s not a whole you can do about it. Being able to adapt and grow along with the twists and turns that come with time is one of the only things you can do to live through the chaos. To keep your head above water when the tide is pulling you under. Everything is impermanent. And people stay the same as much as they don’t. Sometimes you completely lose sight of who you are because you think you’re doing the right thing. Am I doing the right thing now? Deep down I know what’s best for me better than anyone else does. Nothing is coincidence, synchronicity will attest to that. Every moment in life is an opportunity to make you a better person. Because it’s impossible to grow without struggle.
As Ville Valo once said, “you can’t enjoy heaven without the occasional glimpse of hell”.
This hourglass has dropped it’s last grain of sand. Next chapter.
Now that I have the answers I was looking for all along, I can’t help but to see myself in a different light. A place where everything is black and white and there are no shades of gray in between. It’s set in stone, and it’s now impossible to go back and un-see the truth. This is who I have been all along, buried beneath the facade of who I thought I was. I want to believe my lies. All of them. I want to think that this doesn’t change anything, but the truth is: it does. It changes the entire way I see myself- I am a disease; a slow eating cancer. This is the truth. And this will never change. This is who I have kept hidden from myself all of these years- so subconsciously at work that I couldn’t see it for myself.
Maybe monsters are real, but I don’t have to think about them like everyone else does because, deep down underneath it all, they’re just like me.
lovixe asked: What's something that simply keeps you going?
The possibility that there is more to my life than what I already know.
sowhatimaghost asked: Hi, Soo what's it like to be in MIW? Do you tired of doing it sometimes? What's your favorite song out of all your guy's albums? Sorry for all the questions :) Bye.
littlesmissevil asked: Are you actually from Seattle? :)
Off in the distance there’s a storm brewing. Intense neon flashes cut through the looming black, and the sun hangs like a portrait in the corner of the world, its peach tint nearly beyond the horizon. Delicate reverberations drift from nowhere to here, the echo of underlying softness comforting and benevolent. Between gusts of cyclonic wind skating clouds across the sky, the iridescent glow of the fading sun is sometimes sallow, and others, a bloody red. Ahead, the dangerous black thing inches forward, and through the soft chimes dancing in the air come screaming thunderous booms that vibrate the asphalt beneath my feet. In the shadows of dying sunlight there’s a fuzzy static in the sky. Then it hits me. Clear specks cover my clothes in spattered, temporary stains. Sprinkling showers. Then, three-carat diamond size marbles of ice. Within seconds, the gust is so strong that its pulling air out of my lungs. Like sticking your head out of a car window going sixty, I’m gasping for air, and these marbles from the sky are pelting my skin leaving tiny, open welts.
Long ago there was a structure here. A sturdy brick box with a concrete foundation and crimped metal roofing. Over time, the mortar began to fail and, storm after increasingly violent storm, these healthy hunks of clay and concrete crumbled and withered from nature’s elements until it was nothing more than a skewed, tattered, two-foot-tall mausoleum. Now, it’s a pile of rubble and distorted sheet metal.
Glittering above me, the storm is at it’s peak, drowning the surrounding field, the ice ripping my clothes, and the wind stealing my air. Jolts of skin-melting electricity shoot into the ground nearby, and the soft, calming chimes in the distance are gone. So deafening is the storm that I try to yell, and it is nonexistent in the roaring thunder, like it was stolen from the same thieving wind that continues to take my breath. Looking back at the pile of rock that was once my shelter, the wind calms for only a brief moment, enough for a quick swallow of wet, chilled air that stings when it hits my lungs.
The sopping mound of stone sits silent, poker-faced, and stern, offering no tranquility or resolution. Opening my arms, I exhale as the last spark of lightning streaks across the sky, painting a single violet-frayed finger in the darkness that points exactly to where I stand.
If there was some way to say everything that needed saying, then it may all come spewing out like the oatmeal-soup bile of a bulimic, and this would be a thousand pages long. But nothing makes sense anymore, and trying to retain full composure is faulty at best. Unfortunately, this means confusion on top of confusion. And in this world, confusion is everything. It’s what makes us vulnerable, and what keeps us weak. We are, by nature, afraid of what we don’t understand, and this binds us in constant purgatorial restraints. We are so far beyond anything even remotely close to the every day norm, that when this becomes all you know, it’s hard to understand the reality that the rest of the world lives. To find a common interest, or to communicate in a way that has any meaning is next to impossible. I’ve spent so much time thinking about everything in my life. Unfortunately, I don’t seem to comprehend a good single-digit percentage. I’m at a point in my life where the ties and bindings I thought I needed are slowly starting to untie and loosen, and it is without a doubt one of the most interesting things I’ve ever experienced. It’s as if I’m watching the landscape around me crumble bit by bit, and the only thing I’m able to do is watch, because its like seeing someone drown. And little by little, my life is land-sliding and I’m watching the foundations of buildings and landmarks pick up speed. Shortly, I feel that I’m going to see it all crash to the ground, and my world is going to tilt. Dipping ever so slightly into the deep end, giving me a taste of the chaos that will be out of my hands beyond that point. I’m in a continuous loop of my past, wondering how the impossible odds were in my favor and how I’m in the same mental state I was years ago with such different scenery. I’m not exactly sure what it is, but I can feel it with an intensity that’s inexplicable. It’s spilling out of the seams, having filled up somewhere deep within me, and if I don’t relieve some of the pressure I’m going to burst in some violent explosion where all my insides are spread out over the distance of a mile.
I’m not asking for you to understand, or for you to feel sorry, because you won’t understand, and feeling sorry wont bring peace to my internal pandemonium. I’m asking my mind to file away the clutter and bring some sort of order to the mess that is my brain. I’m asking to let go of the impulses, and let go of the constant backseat narration that comes with my every waking moment. I need some sort of serenity. I need undisturbed sleep. And most importantly, I need complete control.
When I close my eyes all I can see is open fields for miles, the leaves ruffling and dancing in the slight breeze. The sun is on my face, and a pack of smashed cigarettes hide in my back pocket. I don’t know where I am, or where I’m going from here, but all I can hear from somewhere in the distance is “keep it together”- an infinite track list on repeat.